Thursday, November 29, 2012

Up and running again!

I took such a long break from Searching for Paradise because, frankly, there was no time to search for it. In fact, my life is in such a non-paradise stage right now, that I'm quite flabberghasted that I dare write on this blog at all right now!
I, however, have come up with a new concept for my journey to Paradise on earth. There is a series of steps one must take to even remotely start their journey. These steps are necessary, and finding paradise without them is definitely going to be a rare or impossible case to accomplish.
So, I came up with a little list of what needs to happen for my journey to Paradise to finally commence:

1.) One must accept that there simply is no Paradise on earth. Everywhere on earth, something is flawed. There is no possible way to find Paradise on earth without accepting this. Nowhere will be perfect enough for society to view it as 'Paradise'.
2.) Become pure. This is potentially the step that will take the longest. You must shut down all the thoughts ads and comercials have given you. If you keep want, want, wanting like society would love you to, then you'll never reach a moment of complete peace in life.
3.) Keep an open mind. If your mind is completely closed, then you'll never learn anything worth much. What you learn in school will get you places, but it can only get you so far.

This part of the year, there is more I wish for. I'm now in high school, and feel a bit more mature, though that probably isn't true.
I looked back on all the posts I wrote on this blog. One moment it was deep, and the next it was as shallow as the mindless robots who consider themselves 'popular'. I definitely have told myself that I must keep myself as deep as I have been on some of my posts.

I have a similar list of wishes that I used to have. I wish for equality among people, and for calmness and peace throughout the land. I hope that America can recover from the horrors that it's had to deal with (I am not pointing out politicians, rather all of the events that have rocked our boat ever since our creation as a nation). I wish that the world would stop being so judgmental, so that we could be who we really are. A level of my mindless-robot hating self was chiseled off. It doesn't help that one of my best friends is what I'd consider a mindless-robot (though she does have many crazy qualities).
In a certain respect, I wish that the world would stop considering 'crazy' the new normal. Refraining from conformity has never been so hard.
Also, I wish that I could act as a child sometimes and not be rebuked for it. Sometimes it's good to let the child running around my mind loose. To be fair, in those cases I'd probably break something. I'm not very good at self control when the child in me is let loose.
I wish that freedom could be free. It is far from it, and just hearing about how many deaths happen in the world every day because of terrorists is just far too frustrating. I wish so much that I know that Santa will not be able to bring this holiday season.

There is so much wrong in the world that I don't know if I'll be able to settle for a couple comic volumes, a fire, hot cocoa, and a Slytherin scarf this Christmas. I need some justice to be done to show me that the world I fear I live in is not what I imagine it to be. There's too much injustice in the world already.

The moral of this post: Society is cruel.

Let's go find Paradise!
Beth (not really)

Monday, March 19, 2012

Today's Topic: How?

I definitely don't know 'how' to find Paradise. Might as well experiment with everything, right? Nah, I'm testing out what the stereotypical person finds joy in and will see how life turns out from that. If it sucks, I try a happier type person. If it's awesome, heck, I just found Paradise! :P

Sorry for the short post. I went to a party two days ago and now I'm sick. >n> But at least I didn't have to deal with school today. >w> Yay sickness!!!

Beth

Thursday, March 15, 2012

I gotta journal...

So I might not post as often. I might edit up some of the entries and post them here, but posting here will take a lot of my time. It's not as easy posting to this blog as someone might think. Naturally, my life is super boring, so I need to wait for some really crazy event or something worth telling.
Don't worry, it won't be as often, but I'll still post. I've still go Paradise to find, after all. ;3

Beth

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Wednesday off?

Why in the WORLD would we have a Wednesday off? We have school on Thursday and Friday and Tuesday and Monday, but no Wednesday. Eh, I'm not complaining, no matter how stupid it is. A day off is a day off, right? That's what I say.

In other news, I made it to honor band. YES!!! That's exactly what I wanted. You see, I get to miss two days of school while simply playing the saxaphone for a couple hours. We get lunch there, t-shirts, and on the second day we get free dinner at the bowling alley. Then, we play two concerts and after the second day watch the other schools leave. Who said being in the band had no benefits?
What else is new? Not much. We had a really easy test in science, and I've got to leave soon for saxaphone lessons. D'awww. Oh yeah, and I've made a HUGE edit to my novel that is really just a behind-the-scenes thing, so pretty much no one will notice it. But you can read about that when I post about it on the 'Escape' blog. :D

Beth

Monday, March 5, 2012

This Week's (Belated) Topic: Why?

This post is more of a reason why I started this blog, so if you want to ignore it feel free. I'm explaining reasons like 'why did you start this blog?' 'why bother chasing after Paradise?' 'Why HELP people?'

So why DID I start this blog? I just wanted to see whether I could make an impact and help people. Seeing the view count, that's not going very well yet. ;) Whatever, the view count doesn't tell me anything. As long as I help SOMEONE, with boredom at LEAST, I'm happy.

Why Help people? People are needing more and more help nowadays. They need a little pick-me-up. If I can help them find their little 'dream' world, I figure that'd make them a bit happier. The newspapers really don't help those people, by the way. All this 'dying here' 'fighting there' 'oh look, someone else died!' kind of attitude is really dragging down people now.

Why chase after Paradise? As I said, people need a little pick-me-up. Besides, who would want to chase after Hades or the biggest torture the world has ever seen? I personally think it'd be a bit more effective and useful to find Paradise. Just sayin'.

Yeah, that was a short post. I couldn't post this weekend because I was finishing up a project due today in L.A. class. I presented it today *shudder*. It was a career research paper, btw. While I really, REALLY want to be a 'creative writer' I chose Hematologist. Why? Just to get under people's skin. Not many people would choose a doctor who studies blood. Hey, even I can't help but laugh at the looks on people's faces when I explain my 'career topic' to them.

I think I did decent though...
Beth

Friday, March 2, 2012

Dodgeball!!

As you can probably guess, we played dodgeball during P.E. I was feeling really pumped since I had been reading 'Soul Surfer' by Bethany Hamilton, who got her arm bitten off in a shark attack while surfing. Yet, she continues to surf and her faith in Christ has just gotten stronger through the attack. But, for those of you who really don't give a crap about faith, that's not what this is about. That's my OTHER blog. Go look at my profile if you really want to know. The title makes it obvious.
Anyways, Bethany Hamilton grew up with two older brothers, and would always go all out. I figured it was MY time to shine in P.E. class. I'm always the person hiding behind the mat, trying to save myself the embarassment of getting 'out'. Today? Heck no! I think I got out about five times. As long as I get the other team to be dragged down with me, I'm happy.
You see, it was boys v. girls. The boys in our class, or most of them anyways, are AMAZING when it comes to accuracy and speed. The girls? Not as good. So I decided I'd try to make up for that. So my aim isn't the greatest in the world. I haven't actually thrown anything in sport, besides little P.E. games, since two years ago in soft ball (my schedule was too busy last year to play, and I don't think I'll have the time this year either).
To get back on topic, I ended up hitting, I think, three or four of the major throwers, and two of them more than once. One of them I think I ended up hitting several times, but he pretended that it hit his shirt or pretended that nothing had happened. Ahh, that's life for you.
There was backlash, however. I ended up straining a muscle on the high back of my right leg, and it's really sore. Also, we played 'Matball' afterwards (think of kickball, but with four bases. You have to go around each base twice and that's a point. You can only get out by getting hit with the ball), and I totally embarassed myself. I ended up catching the ball at one point, but when I threw it the ball went COMPLETELY off target. That happened twice. Oops. But it was still amazingly fun, despite the several messups my team made. It's not about winning or losing to me, it's about just being out there, participating and doing my best.
You could call me athletic I guess. My parents and older brother never cease to try and explain that to me. Also, a lot of girls at my school comment on how skinny I am. Actually, that's counter-productive since that includes the fact that I have practically no muscle. Pfft! Oh well. Playing sports is fun to me, but I am still trying to convince myself that it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks of me. I'd be happy to play the sport, but I don't want to go so far to look stupid. That's something I'm trying to fix.

Can This Help With Paradise??
Beth

Monday, February 27, 2012

Projects, busywork, tests, reading, saxaphone, piano, drawing, physical therapy, and short weekends. Packed, Packed, Packed.

Packed, Packed, Packed is right. I've got a project due next monday, reading due monday, physical therapy every week, saxaphone performance tomorrow, saxaphone PRACTICE tomorrow, a test in Algebra earlier today, and a lot of busywork from my teachers. It just doesn't let up! Well, blogging will be very low on the spectrum, so I might not be able to write much very soon. I'm sorry.
On another note... actually, there aren't really any other notes. That's it.

Sorry for such a short comment!!!
Beth

Friday, February 24, 2012

Survey (somewhat)

I've decided to enter the Showcase contest at my school this year. It's where you write a bit of creative writing and turn it in to the 8th grade L.A. teacher (which is easy, since I have her second core every day). There's only one problem: It has to be under two pages.
I can't write a short story in two pages! I can't even write a SCENE in two pages! It's not enough for me! I need at least five!!! I know that it'll be about this girl who's in suffering and will end up losing everything in the end with a little moral that is completely and utterly useless. Just because I can and my teacher can't judge me on the message of the story, but the quality of the writing. And I'm going to make the best quality writing I can, just because.
So, do you think I should really continue with this story, or try for something like a poem that's a lot shorter and easier to write out?

Beth

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Tons of Work

I've been getting more and more work from each of my teachers. However, I am sad to say that I am still one of the world's greatest procrastinators. Right now, instead of taking notes on two different videos, trying to plan out what me and my friend are going to do tomorrow in Algebra to catch up since our calculators are crap, and looking up stuff to help me with my OTHER Algebra homework, I'm making a blog post.
Last weekend proved my incredible Procrastinating skills. What did I accomplish over the weekend? Well, what was I SUPPOSED to accomplish?
1.) Algebra Worksheet
2.) Algebra in the workbook
3.) L.A. documentation on research topic
4.) A worksheet for L.A.
5.) Reading for U.S. History
What did I accomplish over the WEEKEND? The EXTENDED weekend, by the way.
1.) A bunch of the Algebra
2.) L.A. worksheet
3.) Reading because I was bored.

In Seminar, I finished the documentation. Yeah, it was terrible. I felt so stupid afterwards. I should really do my homework right now, but I REALLY don't feel like doing work. Oi, what to do.
Anyways, what I'm trying to say is that I'm getting a lot of work from teachers. I might have to cancel making blog posts every day/every other day (officially). Plus, in March we're having a MaNoWriMo (March Novel Writing Month) unofficially, so I'll be busy with that too.
Oh yeah, I'm trying to write 1K words every day. It'll be tough, but over the weekends I can catch up for lost time over the week days (assuming that I don't have a lot of homework/am at home).
With all this work:

I'm sure not on my way to find Paradise ;)!!!
Beth

Friday, February 17, 2012

This Week's Topic: Where

I'm getting straight to the point today. I'm making it early because I might just catch up on last week's tomorrow. So, stay tuned for tomorrow as well as today!

Where would Paradise be?
Well, many people picture Paradise as the perfect place surrounded by their perfect friends and perfect objects that make life just a big fraud. Really, life isn't about the designer friends, drugs, and clothes people. It's about so much more than a clothing brand and store chain.
Sorry, that would be more of a 'what' question. So where is Paradise? This question I would only be able to answer by 'depends on the person, their likes and dislikes, and different passions.' If someone loved the outdoors and countryside, it might be in the middle of the country where there is a forest nearby, as well as a prairie. To someone who hates the outdoors, it could be in the middle of the city surrounded by the city noises and things that make cities so different to live in.

If you can think of any more questions for 'Where', please send me a comment. If you don't want to be heard by anyone else, I'll set up a 'Contact Me' page right now.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day everybody!! I really don't celebrate it much. The only reason I even say that is because I get candy at school. Did you realize that you're celebrating the day a man got his head chopped off? I find that a little ironic that we're talking about all this loveydovey stuff on the day that a lover was murdered because of that topic.
Anyways, what happened today? I had a quiz in Algebra, research in L.A. next to the most annoying person in the class (who really gives someone else the nickname 'Perry' because she likes platypuses??), boring notetaking in U.S. History, and in Science I got to brag a little bit silently because I'm far ahead of everyone else. Tomorrow I'm finishing up something everyone else will just be starting on. Go me!
I'm having a little lack to talk about, so I have to just forego any more.
Oh yeah, and I'm silently panicking. I have almost run out of topics to talk about for Paradise! I'm no where near ready for experimentation yet to actually figure out what works! If you can think of any topics, send them in ASAP!!

Let's go find Paradise!!!
Beth 

Friday, February 10, 2012

Bowling and Dancing

Today is just going to be amazing! I went to the Bowling Alley for student of the quarter, which was awesome. I mean, how can't it be awesome when you're sitting in a bowling alley, bowling, eating pizza and cake, and playing other arcade games while everyone else is in school, working over desks and taking notes? That's what made my day. That and the fact that this person I don't really agree with on much and I were chatting for a while. It was cool.
After a little ceremony, the staff let us off the hook, and we were going a little crazy. We were playing arcade games for a while, then two friends went bowling while me and another friend watched them. Actually, the two bowling and the other person aren't really 'friends'. We're more 'aquaintances' really.
Anyways, we did that then rode on a couple of the kiddy rides. Hey, it's our day and no one's watching. We've got to act like little kids at some point! Then we got on a mini playground and played around in there. By that time, it was time to go. We had to give the 'claw' a try though, even though we failed.

Tonight, I will be going to a dance with my best friend, Kiba. Our parents might talk and meet each other. If so, it might be okay for us to have a sleepover. Smug face! At the dance I'll also be with some other buddies too. It'll be a great night! I'll have to blog about it tomorrow!!
That's pretty much all that happened today. I loved today though. Now I've really got to go write.

Let's go find Paradise!!!
Beth

Thursday, February 9, 2012

*FacePalm*

I'm going to the Student of the Quarter luncheon. Apparently, though, this is the quarter where all the teachers picked slips from a hat. Me and NO BEST FRIENDS AT ALL!! I could have been with two great friends last quarter, but I didn't make it in. :'( Tear.
Besides that? Today was AWESOME!! I went to my classes, got good grades on my two tests. In Language Arts we're taking a personality test, but that isn't a grade. Algebra got me a 100% and U.S. History gave me a 94%. Eh, it's better than what some people got. In Science we watched a video. Then, I went to Jazz Band.
We were just chilling and playing our music. I practiced on one of the songs especially and got praise from the teacher. We had to play this one song all the way through, but there's a place for solos in the middle, and she asked me to play the 'demonstration solo', which I really wanted to. That's always a good sign.
But after Jazz Band was probably the best fifteen minutes of the entire day. We were just acting so much like little kids because it was snowing outside, and it was so fun. Two friends made snow angels (even though the snow isn't that thick outside yet) and wrote their names in the snow. I wrote the word 'Hi' instead, but in two places.
Two guys got onto one of the roofs of the school and were sliding around on the ice up there. They only came down when another guy laughed and pretended that one of the strictest teachers in the school was walking by. We had a good laugh out of that.
The rest is pretty much a blur. We were talking for a while and just standing outside eating snowflakes. Then were walked and talked for a bit, but of course, it only lasted fifteen minutes. Then I had to go so that I wouldn't be slaughtered by my father for coming home late (nah, he would probably just give me a stern look).
It was hysterical! One of my friends got asked out by her crush. Her dad wouldn't allow it until he met her crush. He did today right outside the car. The first thing her dad asked him was why he was wearing a Red Socks shirt. You see, my friend's from Texas, but is a Yankee's fan. It's kind of confusing.

Let's go find Paradise!!!
Beth

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Survey...

This actually requires you guys to answer. Muaha. Yeah, I'm pretty much not over all that 'amusement, hypocrite' stuff from yesterday (if you've no clue what I'm talking about, look at yesterday's post), but I'm holding it in for now. Heaven forbid I bore my readers.
Okay, I want to know how boring this really is to you. My posts, are they boring on the weekends and you just read my blog for the weekdays? Vice versa? Do you enjoy my little lectures on 'coolness', 'who, what when, where, why, and how?' Do you even CARE about Paradise?
You see, I'm asking because I've never been normal. I don't know what the average person enjoys or doesn't. Is this topic appealing to the average eye? Or is it just the amazing background that amazes you guys? *smile smile* What appeals to you about this site that you actually come here?

Other news? Kiba's really starting to get into her animation. She's already created a small part of a script for one of the episodes. Go to 'lhlab61' on Youtube for (probably) more info. She's got the soundtrack on there that I might just have to post on here tomorrow or the next day.
What else? Every quarter a total of eight students in each grade are called 'Students of the Quarter' and go to the Bowling Alley for a little celebration and pizza. I GOT STUDENT OF THE QUARTER FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THREE YEARS!!! *party* On Friday, I get to go miss half of the school day! W00terw00tw00t.
That concludes my extreme hopefullness. I wonder who I'll be stuck with there as the other seven people. Probably jerks that I don't like. Oooh, that'd be terrible. Whoever it is, I'm going to enjoy missing class on Friday, since I'm going to be having two tests tomorrow. One of those tests is major and we only have FIVE QUESTIONS!!! ONLY FIVE!! You miss one and immediately get an 80%.
The other? No clue.

Let's go find Paradise!!!
Beth

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Amusement

That title probably has nothing to do with this post whatsoever. This post is just about how we actually got snow today!! It's snowing right outside the window in front of me! I know, people in Russia and Sweden and places like that are so used to snow, they're probably thinking 'so what?'
However, this is the probably the third or fourth time it's snowed all winter long. Only once did the snow actually stay. Well, it's cold enough for snow to stick this month. We've been getting so much cold weather that it's been too cold to snow!
What do I really want? I want people to appreciate what they have. I want people to get along and all decide that wars really aren't the answer. I want people to love their neighbors. I want more people giving more to charity. I want to go and become a missionary in Africa. I want to serve my Lord with all my heart. I want to become a nicer person to be around. I want all sin to die. I want everyone to be saved. I want people to accept that everyone will be different. I want people to understand, as Dr. Seuss said, that a person's a person, no matter how small.
I want love to really make the world go 'round. Not the 'Oh, I love you, want to go get married?' kind of love, but the 'respect others' kind of love. Instead, right now hatefulness and loathing is traveling across the world. I want people to really respect others for who they are, and to not judge a book by its cover.
 I want to help people understand what this world needs. I want to help people who are in need. I want to make a difference. I want to help people find their personal 'Paradise'. I want to help.

Okay, so that's a little bit in depth of my mind right now. I just want to help people, but because of my mask and freakish amount of paranoia, that isn't possible right now. I, instead of helping, am striking people down. I, instead of loving neighbors, and knocking on their door and having them fall flat on their backs. I am stopping those who could really help us from doing it. I am, instead of stopping sin, creating more in the world and probably making it worse.
I am a hypocrite. Call me whatever you want, but that's what probably fits me best. That's the one word I would use whenever someone asks me about myself. Hypocritical. Crude. Paranoid. Clueless. Always being amused.
Why would I put 'always being amused?' The word 'muse' just means to think. To be 'amused' means to not think. It is a lack of thinking. That is why most of my hobbies are not 'amusing' but 'entertaining.' However, I almost never think through these things, and, as I am not thinking, am not 'musing' and, as a result, becoming 'amused.'
Some people would say it is a curse. I will not say that. I believe that whatever we do in this world is our own choice. Results, such as war, are not what some people say (that God doesn't love us), but because some people are being 'amused.' They are not thinking through things clearly.
Some people would just say, 'why not just call yourself stupid?' There is a difference between 'stupidity' and 'amusement'. I am not stupid. Stupidity is the lack of knowledge. I have a feeling that my I.Q. would not be exactly low. Please do not believe that my theory is a boost in ego. No, I am stating what I firmly believe. I am not exactly full of myself. At least, only as full as the average human.
Anyways, I am not stupid, I am just not thinking. If I used my mind to its fullest, I'm sure that things I'd never imagined could get done. For example, I could probably finally understand certain aspects of Algebra that make my mind twist into a million knots. My imagination may perhaps be too big for me. It is what always has gotten me into my theories. Most of them I just try to ignore, of course, but some I don't. I don't know why, but I don't. Those theories are perhaps some of the easier ones.
There are things that have worked throughout history, for example, that people tend to ignore now. What ever happened to compromises in the government? I'm sure that some happen, but not nearly as many as I've been learning of.
Do not let yourself be amused. Muse, even if it's only for a short period of time before becoming amused again. Break out of the terrible habit and muse.
That will conclude my ranting of the day. That may actually conclude my ranting of the entire month. Nonetheless, that concludes my ranting. You probably didn't enjoy it. If you did, then congratulations. You're starting to understand the craziness that is Beth.

Let's go find Musement!!!
Beth (not really)

Monday, February 6, 2012

A Week Off...

Very busy, veeeery busy week for me. Well, mostly busy. Rather busy. Pretty busy. Okay, just 'busy'. Not even busy, it's more 'a tiny bit busier than the average week.' For whatever reason, I just can't seem to write my normal blog post. I'm not in the mood to write in a way that nobody understands so they have to read each sentence over and over again several times through.
What'd I like to talk about? Nothing really. Nothing important or extremely weird happened this week. I mean, normally my weeks are extremely weird with things that never happen happening, but that didn't happen. Okay, that was a weird sentence, and if you don't think so read it again. I've been writing a lot of where my characters and I interact. Yeah, weirdness over <---- here. Hard to miss.
I had a sleepover last night. We watched 'National Treasure II', which was pretty good. It was kind of cliche though, as all movies are. For those of you who haven't seen it, I won't say anything besides that. Most of you have seen it though, I'm sure.
Besides that, all that happened was my talking with other Wrimos and on Chatzy. They're all really nice. I should go back there now, but I've got homework to do.

On a side note: we still haven't found guys to play the parts in our novels. :/ We'll keep searching.

Let's go find Paradise!!!
Beth (not really)

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Coincidences and Recording Scenes

I just presented my project in class. *shudders* My 3D map was crap compared to everyone else's, and it made me feel so nervous! Luckily, we only had to present one part of the project (there was a writing assignment and a creative one), so I presented my writing assignment. I had rewritten the ending of the book 'Virals' by Kathy Reichs. My teacher was very impressed. :3

"Oh, so before we were just a bunch of mutant freaks, and now we're a pack of mutant freaks? That's just so much more reassuring isn't it?"

That's a line I wrote. I'm pretty okay with that one. It's how Hi (the character) would react, which is definitely Reichs' style. That's definitely what I was going for.
I'm back into writing my series 'Trapped'. Virals really helped get me back into it, since the characters are similar. And when I say similar, I mean seriously similar. You see, in 'Virals' the main character is Tory Brennan. In mine, it's Kristen Johnson. Let me show you how similar the two are.
Tory Brennan: long red hair, brilliant green eyes, tall, skinny, trouble-maker, stubborn, not afraid to break a few laws to get her way, 14-years-old
Kristen Johnson: long red hair, brilliant green eyes, tall, skinny, trouble-maker, stubborn, not afraid to break a few laws to get her way, 15-years-old

See? It's scary. And that's mostly (but not all) There's also Ben Blue and Ben (I haven't given him a last name)
Ben Blue: 16-years-old, quiet, serious, dark brown hair, tall, muscular, brown eyes, tan
Ben: 16-years-old, quiet, childish, dark brown hair, tall, muscular, brown eyes, a tiny bit tan

Also, there's Nick and Hi
Hi: (a little) chubby, brown hair, funny, sarcastic, 15-year-old
Nick: (a little) chubby, brown hair, funny, sarcastic, 13-year-old

Yeah, it's really freaky. I read this story in the middle of December, and started MY story in the beginning of November.

That's not what this is about. We (my friend and I) are thinking of acting out and recording us and a bunch of friends acting out scenes from our novel. It got a very good reaction from some of our friends on Chatzy N.O.W. (Night of Write), which made us feel even better about the idea.
What we'd do is choose some scenes from our novels and then just get actors and someone to record us acting out the scenes. Me and the friend who started the idea (lhlab61 on Youtube, killerwolf61 on Chatzy and Sumopaint) have already been doing little videos of ourselves for a while being crazy. She's supposed to upload it to YouTube at some point (but she's on vacation right now skiing). If she does, I'll send you guys a link.
Anyways, I'd probably start with some scenes from 'Below' (which I'm rewriting and after that I'll start the editing stage) and Killer will choose some from 'Eve'. We'll definitely post it to YouTube and I'll most DEFINITELY send you readers the link when we do.
It's exciting, but we can't do this until we have:
1.) a couple guy actors and (potentially) a female actor.
2.) props (for wings and just making ourselves actually look like our characters)
3.) a time/place to act

For the first one I might just ask my older brother and someone else. For number two we'll make do. We both loove to draw anyways. For the third, well, I've got an idea. :) I'll tell you guys when we actually start filming (but beware, it will probably be cheesy and full of bloopers. But everyone loves bloopers right?)

Let's go find Paradise!!!
Beth (not really)

This Week's Topic: When

This topic is not quite so broad as the others. I mean, there isn't much you can say about 'When' besides something to do with time. When will we find it? When does it appear to people, if there's a specific time it does? When will this blog ever make since?
When will we find it? I believe it won't be a walk in the park, and it definitely won't show up within a couple hours, or even weeks. I personally think that it will take years, if not longer, to find this place. Of course, it all depends on the person.
When does it appear to people, if there's a specific time it does? I have a theory on this one. Let's just say you're sad because someone died. After mourning, the pain doesn't really go away. Well, eventually you'll realize that live must go on, despite the pain that's always in your chest when you think of the deceased. When you open your eyes and see the world in a happier view, it will (I'm guessing) be breath-taking. It'll be easier and best to find Paradise right after you're done mourning/just got over something depressing.
When will this blog ever make sense? Probably never. If you really follow closely it makes a little sense, but if you want to know when my theories will make sense? Never.

Let's go find Paradise!!!
Beth (not really)

Friday, January 27, 2012

My apologies...

Yeah, I'm really sorry about the whole 'didn't write at all last week and completely skipped over the topic' thing. It was a little hectic, getting ready for Confirmation on Tuesday (woot woot!) and exams on the same day. I was going to catch up on Wednesday, but I was really just too lazy. It felt too much like a Friday. Oh, and I've also gotten so much into writing my novel again that I really didn't want to waste my time blogging. Might want to point that out too.
Okay, so I need to go to Confession. What else is new?

I won't bore you guys to tears by blogging two different topics on Saturday, so sorry about last week. I'm really not in the mood right now to make up for it. Sorry. I'm just really mad about something that happened yesterday. It's not a big deal really, just another bully at school that finally just made me snap. Hey look, another reason to go to Confession!

I've been watching italktosnakes on YouTube. Man, I'd love to vlog. Of course, my parents would probably ground me if they found out. I don't think they'd be all excited on the idea, either, because of the whole 'terrorist' thing, and don't worry, I can totally relate with them. It's not like I'd be going around stating where I live or what my full name is. I don't think they'd mind the little things like my being in a video with my best friend (every time we have a sleepover at her house we make a new video. We are still yet, however, to have it appear on YouTube. If it ever does, and I hope it does because they're actually really funny (they show us being completely random and ourselves), I'll tell you all.)

Oh yeah, whoever it is viewing this from Russia, you are awesome! I'd state what you go by, but since I am yet to have a single comment, well, it's kind of hard. heh. But still, you are really cool.

Let's go find Paradise!!!
Beth (not really)

Sunday, January 15, 2012

This Week's Topic: What

If you haven't heard, I'm going to post a topic weekly now, on Saturday. I'll still post on the other days, it's just that the week's topics will be, well, one day a week. It's quite simple really.
(Edit: Sorry that it's late. Yesterday was all jumbled up.)

Now, there are a great deal many questions that can come of 'What'? For example, 'What is Paradise?' Well, that question can be answered in many different ways. Some people believe that Paradise is the perfect place where nothing wrong can happen.
The only Paradise, then, would be Heaven. I believe that, if you twirl your standards around a bit, we could find a Paradise on earth. Which is what I'm searching for, duh. As I was saying, most people believe it's perfect.
Well, what is perfect? Is perfect necessarily where nothing wrong ever happens, there is no war, there are no problems, and everything is calm? To some people the 'perfect situation' might be relaxing on a beach with a book in hand. The word Perfect varies, which definitely varies the term Paradise.
As a general term, though, Paradise would be where 'perfect' is normal.
What does Paradise look like? Paradise can come in many shapes and forms, depending on the person asked. To me, it's a place where I can be me without a worry. I wouldn't have to worry about the cruel judging, dramatic jerks I've had to deal with before. I would like to be recognized, but not as someone who just sets trends and follows them. Trends are stupid. Conformity just doesn't roll with me. Bleck.

When I first think of Paradise, an image of a place like the Garden of Eden pops up. An innocent, beautiful garden completely isolated from the crappy world outside. Maybe it is, maybe not. Who knows?
What makes Paradise Paradise? Well, all of these questions are dependent on the person you are asking. To me? Just the fact that nobody is there to judge you and you have freedom to do whatever your heart desires (unless that includes judging people/robbing banks) makes it sound so wonderful.
I mean, if you could go somewhere where it's OKAY to be the weirdest person on the planet? Perfect for me.

Let's go find Paradise!!!
Beth

Friday, January 13, 2012

Dogsitting... Day #1

Well, Toby is at our house and he's been doing fine. Of course, when my friend and her family first left, he refused to leave the door except to watch me put his bed up in my room and stuff. After that, though, he went back to the door. I felt so bad, since he was whining so much.
Then, I took him on a walk and I believe he felt a lot better. We went back inside, I threw him his rope, and he was all energetic, that goodness. Of course, than my dog became all sad and droopy and wouldn't leave her bed for a moment. Oi vey.
Let's see how Toby adjusts then. He's been following me all around since the walk. Every time I sit down at the computer to write, draw, or just chat, he's lying on the floor by the chair. It reminds me of how my dog, Cinnamon, follows my dad around everywhere. The only difference is, my dog is about three times the size of Toby, and always gets in his way.

Let's go find Paradise!!!
Beth

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Life Goes On...

Well, as searching for Paradise can't take up all of life, I battle with what the normal teenager does. Friendships, bullies, busy schedules, homework, just school in general, family, and the other typical things that teenagers deal with. Sure, I might have a back worse than the average peer, and I'm not fussing over hair/clothes/music/etc., but I'm still pretty average. Well, mostly anyways. The fact that I'm a teenager, must deal with the typical teenager crap, and the fact that I actually have a life means that I'm average, right?
I've come up with a list of resolutions for the new year. Sure, they're just over a week late, but at least I've made one, right? Well, I've been thinking for a couple days, and I think I've finally pinpointed a couple resolutions for this year. Normally I end up failing at mine or make them very easily achievable. This year, I'm changing that.
1.) (Once you get running shoes) start running every weekend. You're way too inactive because of you're backbrace, so get out there and do something good for once!!
2.) Get closer to God. Okay, besides the prayers... well, VERY common prayers recently, you haven't spent much time getting closer. DO something to prove it.
3.) Do more service hours. Going to that soup kitchen and helping make/serve dinner was really fun, even if it was a little awkward since you couldn't understand all their German.
4.) Get into piano lessons again. You know they're good for you, even if you hate being told what to do. Conformity (if that's a word) is not one of your strongest points.
5.) Complete the 365K/365 Day challenge. And no, blog posts may not, and I repeat NOT, count as words. No matter how many words you write in them.
Those are pretty easy, but more long term, not something I could accomplish in a week. It also forces me to stay dedicated.

Tomorrow I'll be dog sitting my best friend's dog. Toby visited us on Wed. to make sure that my dog, Cinnamon, wouldn't devour him. Cinnamon's a labrador. Toby is a doxen mixed with something that I forgot. heh. Anyways, I've been over to her house a bunch so he knows me. Every time I slept over he would get under my covers and keep my feet warm.
I <3 Toby. hee.
He'll be at my house for the four day weekend (I don't have school tomorrow or Monday) and I'm getting $20 a day (for those of you who have trouble with math, that would be $80)

Let's go find Paradise!!!
Beth

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Changes...

'Today's Topic' will officially be 'this weeks' topic. Otherwise I'd run out of topics to blog about. heh. Every Saturday I'll make a new topic, starting next Saturday. It'll also give me time to get out of the blogging phase. I'll continue doing it, but it won't be 'I've got to blog, I've got to blog, I've got to blog, I've got to blog' all day in my head.
You'll be hearing more and meeting more of Your's Truly, moi. The blog itself will probably make a bit more sense.
No, this doesn't count as one of the 'daily posts' so I'll be making another one.

Let's go find Paradise!!
Beth

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Today's Topic: Who?

Yes, I will be going through the 'who, what, when, where, why' stage of finding Paradise. In order to get to this Paradise, I believe that you must truly understand the aspects of it. Knowing it can help believe in it. Seeing may not be believing, but Knowing can really help. To truly understand, you must truly believe. And in order to truly believe, you must Know. Do you get what I'm saying?
So, this stage is of utmost importance. Knowing 'Who, What, When, Where, and Why' can lead to much more Knowledge, which leads to more and more, ending in the 'I found Paradise!' stage. I know this might be a bit of a boring stage, but, please, you and I MUST understand this. It is just. That. Important.

Anyways, Who? Well, there are several questions that spring from the single word 'who'. Who would be the best fit for Paradise? The answer is, no one. Nobody deserves anything but Hell, and please don't take this offensively. It is true, just look in the Bible. We can't go to heaven, that's God's job. ANYWAYS, Who would this Paradise apply to?
I believe anyone that truly will apply themselves to it could eventually find this. It would take dedication and probably a lot of mental hard work, but I believe they could do it. So, in essence, this blog could help anyone find their way there. Well, if this journey works for me anyways.

This entry shall be short, since there just isn't much 'Who' in the overall topic. This Paradise is open and there for anyone, but pretty much no one has the endurance to keep up and try for it. Nobody deserves it. What other 'Who' questions could there be? If you have any, go ahead and comment.

Let's Find Paradise!!
Beth

Monday, January 9, 2012

Today's Topic: Coolness

I've always been pondering things about my life, even though they're pretty easily answered. These could potentially find my true 'paradise' or 'calm to the storm'. Everyone is looking for their's, even if they haven't really expressed it much to themselves yet. This, I have done. Anyways, these are questions on the topic stated in the title that could help lead me (or misguide me) on my journey.
Am I cool? Well, as the phrase 'cool' differs in meaning by each individual, I could be 'cool' so to speak by one person, and insanely geeky by another. I believe it is rather redundant just answering this question, as one's social status doesn't really affect where one stands in life. However, I ask this to myself just to see whether it could potentially affect me in any way.
So, am I cool? If the phrase refers to someone who spends their life looking for and following every trend that comes their way, then no. I don't believe that I really need to waste my time, life, and money on some stupid trend that will probably be gone within a decade anyways. I would be a total 'nerd' in that sense.
To me, the phrase 'cool' is just being okay with one's self. Sure, everyone wants something about them to change. ('Hey, why can't my hair be longer? Why can't that pimple just go away? Why can't my teeth be straighter?') However, I mean someone who, overall, is just okay with themselves as a person. I know that I have faults that I need to fix, but I'm okay being me. I'm probably not as 'cool' as a lot of other people out there because of my wants and wishes, but, overall, I would be decently 'cool' on my level.
By the majority of the world, 'cool' means 'popular/ being high on the social status'. I don't think this is necessarily true. Some of the most popular people out there (by what my personal definition of the phrase is) are some of the least 'cool' people on the planet. They will desperately try to keep up with trends and are always changing themselves to be considered popular by their peers. They aren't okay with being them, they always want to be something better.
So, no, I am not popular. I have some friends who probably fit the definition, but, as my own person, I am not considered such.
Do I care about being 'cool' from the world's view? I believe that everyone, somewhere deep in their mind, wants to be considered 'cool' and known by everyone in good light. And it also wouldn't be a bad experiment. However, I know that the popular people don't always tend to be the nicest/best friends someone could have, and some that are sucked in to the void of coolness are tempted and threatened by peers. They listen because they are afraid.
At the same time, I know that the 'cool' people have to go through a lot of stress. They have to watch every step because it will be spilled to the school (or world, if you replace 'cool' with 'famous'). I feel kind of sorry for them, actually, since, though it has its upsides, being 'cool' can also have many downsides.
What does this have to do with 'Paradise'? Paradise has been put into many different definitions. It is mostly described as the perfect place. Some people believe that the 'perfect' thing would be to be considered 'popular' and 'cool' by many. It isn't something likely to be passed up at the chance. The question is: WOULD this make your life feel better? WOULD it make life seem perfect, like beautiful 'Paradise'? OR would it make life much worse and seem horrible?

Let's go find Paradise!!
Beth

The Search for Paradise Begins!!

What do I mean by this? Many people describe Paradise as 'perfect'. Well, there is NO place on earth that is 'perfect' so I'll just try to settle with finding my calm in the storm of life. I'll try to find my personal Garden of Eden.
Now, how am I supposed to find this? What could possibly make life just. That. Much. Better? Well, that question is actually my theory. I always come up with crazy theories that my friends roll their eyes at. Eigth graders don't always understand, which, yes, includes me. I don't understand half the things my parents talk about during dinner time. That just shows that I don't have enough experience in the area of conversation.
Anyways, back to my theory. My theory is that, in order to find the closest thing to Paradise on Earth (which I'll just call Paradise to make things easier), you must collect all the things that make life just. That. Much. Better. And find somewhere, or something, that could help you mix them together into a part of your life. Then, with the help of all these things you love, it would probably make life just. That. Much. Better. (The emphasis is mostly just show. Feel free to ignore it. ;).)
However, this theory is just that. A theory. So I have volunteered myself to try and see whether this will actually work. If it does, I will find life in the calm of the storm. If not, well, life will either go on as it is now, or it will probably end up in the storm, completely off the path to finding the calm.
Now, I am a normal teenage girl. Mostly. I don't fuss over my hair, clothes, and shoes. Does that still make me a normal teenage girl? Well, I don't know, but that might just make things even more different. It make mean that this journey will be harder, since I am never as nearly satisfied with just 'clothes, shoes, and nice hair'. However, it might make it easier, since I won't be fussing over myself the whole way. Let's find out, shall we?

Let's go find Paradise!!
Beth

Saturday, January 7, 2012

The Pendulum

The pendulum that makes the clock work. It counts down the seconds of each day. It makes the (older fashioned) clocks go. That's repeated, oops.
My life is the pendulum. Every day is the same thing repeating itself over and over again. Every day holds the same routine. The weekdays are described the best when it comes to this. How depressing how I am already repeating myself over and over and I'm only in eigth grade.
Weekday mornings consist of this:
I wake up, get changed, go to the bathroom, and then eat breakfast. After that, I go back and brush my hair and put my backpack together. If I have to, I go and make my lunch. I then go back, wash my face and brush my teeth, and by then my friend is there to walk with me to school. Sometimes we go and grab another friend, but that often almost makes us late, so we normally don't.
At school, during homeroom, I'll turn around in my chair and talk to friends. In Seminar, I work on my writing when I don't have homework to do. If I do have more homework, I rush to get it finished and then write or read.
After school, it's different every day
Monday: I procrastinate a little until I finally decide to do my homework. After homework (if I can finish it before dinner) I just spend my time on the computer looking at stuff and typing. After dinner, I do chores, talk more with friends, take a shower (I always brush my teeth and wash my face after/before this), get into my pajamas, and settle into my room with a book/writing.
Tuesday: I do homework earlier and then get on the computer. Before I can eat dinner, I go to saxaphone lessons from 5:30 - 6:00. After that, I eat dinner and then go on the computer again. I later take a shower and then get into pajamas and settle in with a book/writing.
Wednesday: I go to Jazz Band until 4:30 and then go to Girl Scouts until 6:00. I go home, eat dinner, do chores, do homework, take a shower, get into pajamas, get on the computer for a little bit, and then settle in with a book/writing.
Thursday: I go home, eat a snack and stuff, and then have to head over to Physical Therapy for my back at 3:30. Therapy ends at 4:30 and we get home at 5:00. I normally do homework and then eat dinner. Then, it's computer, shower, pajamas, and then writing/reading.
Friday: I go home, eat food, I might do homework (or might do it on Sat/Sun) and then just relax around the house until dinner. After dinner, I do chores, computer, shower, pajamas, more writing on computer while talking on Chatzy, and then reading/writing.

Yeah, that's my routine. It pretty much never changes. It's sad.

Yours Truly,
Beth

A Little About Me...

Totally changed this blog around. Completely. It's no longer about just writing. Sure, I'm a writer and I'll probably bring up the topic more than once, but it's not just about my writing anymore. It's about me now.
I'm going to paste fake names on here. I'm sorry, but you never can trust anyone you don't know on the internet. Even the people you do know... I don't know, it's just troubling.

Let's call me 'Beth'. I suffer from scoliosis. My spine is shaped in an 'S' so that one shoulder is higher than the other. It used to be unnoticable, but it's gotten worse. In fact, if my back were to get much worse, I'd have to get surgery and have a rod force my spine into place. Thankfully it's not that bad yet. For now, I just have to wear a back brace.
The back brace is just hard plastic made to fit around my body. However, there are little pads that stick into my back this way and that to make my back grow straight. It mostly stops right about where my heart is. However, there is a piece that sticks up and goes under and behind my right arm. It buckles in the front to make sure that it wouldn't just slip off. It's not very thick, thankfully, so it fits under my clothes.
However, if I wear tight clothes and lean fowards, the piece behind my right arm sticks out. I get a couple odd glances because of that. Heh.

I love to write. Whenever I feel bored or even the slighest bit depressed, I just write it out. I don't mean journal entries or anything like that. I like creative writing (writing stories). Sometimes, if I'm really mad at someone I'll just push my anger onto my characters. I don't think the characters like that very much. My characters, see, are as alive to me as you and me. I find it annoying when people tell me they aren't real, because they ARE to me.
I've been complimented by many of my teachers since fourth grade for my writing. In fifth grade, we had to write a short story. When everyone got their yearbooks and sent them around, my teacher signed it and wrote a little note, 'I expect to one day just sit down on the beach in a comfortable chair and read one of your novels.' It kind of inspired me to keep writing just for her.
In sixth grade... well, it was a weird year. It was the first year I actually had more than one teacher for my core classes. I actually only had three, and then the extra classes 'P.E., band, art, etc.' I never had much of an oportunity to impress my L.A. teacher. Well, except for one time, when I wrote twice as much as we were supposed to on a paper. But that wasn't even what I enjoyed writing. Instead, it was an essay.
In seventh grade, my L.A. teacher wasn't fazed by anything. She's seen it all, you know? So she wasn't moved much. That and the fact that most of us were scared of her because she had such an 'I don't care' attitude. After seventh grade I realized that she was actually pretty cool.
Now, I've already impressed my L.A. teacher. She's commented on my writing before. We do a lot of creative writing in L.A. nowadays (but also a lot of book reports and stuff. ugh), so that keeps it interesting.

One final thing I think you should know. I'm a Christian (all the way). In fact, on the 24th I get confirmed in the Catholic church. I'm thinking my saint name will be Saint Katherine. :/ I'm sorry, but I want to show people how God has just moved me. So He will be mentioned in this blog. I'm a believer.

Okay, now the introduction is done. That was long enough. Don't worry, there probably won't be another post like this. I'll probably just try explaining my complex mind, which I find has made me a lot different from everyone else. Not that I'm complaining.

Keep Reading,
Beth